I’m the spontaneous ant on your shoulder, I move sideways, destined to be squashed.
- Edward Flowers
It’s time to say good bye to tumblr. I’ll let it exists as a relic of my thoughts but I can’t keep coming back to this headspace. This is one of the last connections to Andres and it’s best I leave it here.
I’m feeling forced to change but this is my decision. I want to focus on something else.
Maybe one day I’ll have a comic or a collection of photography worth sharing. But until then, I have to focus on creating new things that will make me happy again.
Remember when all we had was my room. Rainy days would be my favorite. We’d just listen to beach house and share a moment that we both knew was unique to us.
I can’t say I’m excited for this year. I feel like it’s just going to be a transition year for me (you know, like when you turn 19 and 20 years old). Just work and school. I’m not trying to start a relationship any time soon. I’m so hurt right now. I honestly don’t see myself getting better anytime soon either. Never got any closure other than feeling like I was completely hated by the end of the relationship. I could already imagine him saying “I stayed away because I loved you so much” and to that I say, NO. After three years you would have known that this is the ultimate “fuck you.” You know me.
Also, I can’t with this random crying. I know I’m a lot stronger but my emotions are so overwhelming lately. Is this what you consider a broken heart?